All I can say is I dealt with a lot. It's been hard trying to even feel good about doing better, learning, and growing.
I don't have a lot of people to talk to about how I'm feeling or doing and distanced myself from people to work on my goals because I got tired of starting conversations with people just to tell them I don't have a lot going on and actually going through things emotionally, mentally, etc.
I basically had a whole life of things being that way. So I'm on my journey to heal to get the life I want.
I don't even share so much because of worrying of others trying to use things against me or being used to paranoia, but if I want things to be better then I have to put things into a more positive perspective and that includes my mind and how I see things.
Hope I'm not oversharing, thank you for the post it actually helped me.
It is scary to look inside and be a detective into the negative patterns of thinking and feeling. I find that these "protective" patterns are actually working against me. They look enticing at first, a way out of something I would rather not face but they disappoint every time. They feel like a cage I am itching to get out of. They are just not doing it for me anymore so instead I look inside .... and lo and behold I somehow find the peace I was looking for ......and grow a little stronger and a little wiser.
Yes, exactly! The things we avoid or block out to protect ourselves hurt us in the long run if we never face them. I like the way you described it: "a cage I'm itching to get out of".
Girl! I’m trying hard not to be sad and angry about the political state of affairs and the corruption of the Supreme Court. It’s like watching car wreck in slow motion.
I am staying on my list of tasks, controlling the only thing I can. Me!
All I can say is I dealt with a lot. It's been hard trying to even feel good about doing better, learning, and growing.
I don't have a lot of people to talk to about how I'm feeling or doing and distanced myself from people to work on my goals because I got tired of starting conversations with people just to tell them I don't have a lot going on and actually going through things emotionally, mentally, etc.
I basically had a whole life of things being that way. So I'm on my journey to heal to get the life I want.
I don't even share so much because of worrying of others trying to use things against me or being used to paranoia, but if I want things to be better then I have to put things into a more positive perspective and that includes my mind and how I see things.
Hope I'm not oversharing, thank you for the post it actually helped me.
It is scary to look inside and be a detective into the negative patterns of thinking and feeling. I find that these "protective" patterns are actually working against me. They look enticing at first, a way out of something I would rather not face but they disappoint every time. They feel like a cage I am itching to get out of. They are just not doing it for me anymore so instead I look inside .... and lo and behold I somehow find the peace I was looking for ......and grow a little stronger and a little wiser.
Yes, exactly! The things we avoid or block out to protect ourselves hurt us in the long run if we never face them. I like the way you described it: "a cage I'm itching to get out of".
Girl! I’m trying hard not to be sad and angry about the political state of affairs and the corruption of the Supreme Court. It’s like watching car wreck in slow motion.
I am staying on my list of tasks, controlling the only thing I can. Me!
Breathing my way through. 🧘🏽♂️
Me too! It's always in the back of my mind! I'm definitely leaning into my daily practices to avoid spiraling into the fear.